SOMETIMES I CRACK

Sometimes, when I'm explaining life lessons to my kids, I get really choked up and even shed a few tears. I don't fall apart and burst into a sobbing mess, but, it's hard to hold back the buildup. I'm always trying to guide my kids in their lives, and explain to them some of the pitfalls, they may encounter. The reason I crack, is because I think about my own life, and the problems, I faced. I know they think I'm strict, and I push them hard, but, I stand behind them because I believe in them. I also, remember the absence of that voice, that guidance, in my own life, as a child onto adulthood. It makes me feel empty. I don't want my kids to feel the things, I felt. The lost wandering feeling, and the constant question, of what now? So, I do my best on a daily basis, to be an influence, a guiding force, in the life of my children. I'm not perfect, and I'm always willing to admit when I'm wrong to my kids. They understand, I'm human. My mistakes, don't need to be carried on to them tho. Hence the warnings, the words, the strict nature, because they won't grow into some of the idiots I've seen and met. They have the unlimited potential of young souls, and I make sure they have that knowledge. I tell them all the time, do whatever you want, but, make sure you give it 100%, and I'll be behind you 1000%. I treat the relationship between me and my kids, like its the most valuable thing in my life, because it is. I just want them to be happy, well adjusted people, without an ounce of regret for who they've become, and I feel if I'm always there, by their side guiding them....they will be.   -  925