HEY THERE...

 YOU KNOW, I MAY AT TIMES, THRU THIS BLOG SEEM A LITTLE SELF-RIGHTEOUS....WAIT, BACK UP.....LET'S START OVER.

HEY, HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?  I HAVEN'T MADE ANY NEW POSTS IN A WHILE, PARTIALLY BECAUSE, THERE HASN'T MUCH NEWS TO TELL.  SOME OF THAT, IS ME BEING FORGETFUL, AND I APOLOGIZE TO THOSE READERS, WHO ACTUALLY PAY ATTENTION TO THE SHIT I WRITE.  I WILL DO MY BEST TO GET BACK INTO THE GROOVE.  IT IS STILL A SUNDAY THING, AND OCCASSIONALLY THERE WILL BE OTHER POSTS, DEPENDING ON WHAT NEWS THERE IS TO TELL.

OK, GETTING BACK, TO WHAT I WAS SAYING INITIALLY.  I KNOW MANY PEOPLE, I TALK TO, I GET INTO PHILOSOPHICAL TALKS WITH OR, I LOOK AT THINGS A BIT DIFFERENTLY, AND THAT MAY COME OFF ANNOYING TO SOME AND EVEN SOME MAY SEE IT AS ME BEING SELF-RIGHTEOUS.  I'M NOT TRYING TO BE.  I AM SIMPLE.  I AM ALSO OBSERVANT BY NATURE, AND SOME OF MY EXPERIENCES, HAVE LED ME TO UNDERSTAND CERTAIN THINGS ABOUT PEOPLE, AND HUMANITY ITSELF.  I HAVE TRIED TO MAINTAIN A SENSE OF CONTROL OF MYSELF THROUGHOUT THE YEARS, SINCE THE TIME, I'VE BECOME AWARE.  BY AWARE, I MEAN, WHEN YOU BEGIN TO STRIP DOWN THE THINGS WE AS HUMANS DO AND SAY, THEN THERE IS USUALLY A PURPOSE BEHIND IT, AND IT'S PROBABLY IN THE MIND.  THAT IS HARD TO ADMIT, FIRST, AND SECONDLY, HARD TO ATTEMPT TO GATHER THE REIGNS ON.  I HEAR ALL THE TIME THAT HUMANITY IS COMPLEX, AND FOR THE MOST PART, IT'S NOT.  THE ROADS, THAT LEAD TO CERTAIN TYPES OF HUMANITY MAY BE COMPLEX, BUT, THE PERSON REALLY ISN'T.  LIKE, FOR INSTANCE, HERE RECENTLY IT HAS BECOME QUITE COMMON TO FORGIVE THE BUFFOON, FOR LACK OF A BETTER TERM.  THE CLOWN, WILL GO OUT AND BASICALLY TURN THINGS INTO A COMPLETE CIRCUS, TO THE DISMAY OF OTHERS, AND WHEN THINGS FALL APART, WE HAVE THE TENDENCY TO FORGIVE THEM OR MAKE EXCUSES FOR THEM.  DOES THIS NOT MAKE US ENABLERS?  THEY ARE PRONE TO REPETITIVE BEHAVIOR FOR SURE, BUT, WHY ARE WE SO FORGIVING?

ON THE OTHER HAND, YOU HAVE A PERSON, WHO IS RELATIVELY HUMBLE/NORMAL AND MAKES A MISTAKE, AND THE WORLD SEEMS TO TURN AGAINST THEM ALMOST COLLECTIVELY.  IT'S AS IF WE APPLAUD THE BRASH, BECAUSE WE SEE PARTS OF IT IN US, AND WE DESTROY THE HUMBLE BECAUSE OUR HEROES HAVE LET US DOWN BEFORE.  IT SEEMS A BIT BACKWARDS TO SAY THE LEAST.  I KNOW PEOPLE, WHO ARE THIRSTY FOR SOME TYPE OF INCLUSION, THAT THEY ARE WILLING TO SACRIFICE ANY SENSE OF THEMSELVES, FOR THE CHANCE TO BE INCLUDED IN WHAT THEY THINK MIGHT BE COOL.  THIS BOTHERS ME, BECAUSE, WHERE ARE THE ONES INSTRUCTING THAT PERSON TO FIND HIS OWN SENSE OF COOL?  SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST SCAVENGERS, PREYING ON THESE WEAK MINDED PEOPLE, IN A BETTER EFFORT TO MAKE THEMSELVES SEEM BETTER.  I KNOW PEOPLE, WHO DO GOOD WORK, VOLUNTEERS, NURSES, ETC., WHO AREN'T DOING THAT BECAUSE THEY LOVE IT, BUT, BECAUSE THEY FEEL IT MAKES UP FOR THE SHIT PERSON THEY ARE INSIDE.  THERE'S A SCENE, IN THE MOVIE AMERICAN GANGSTER WHERE RUSSELL CROWE, AND THE LADY WHO PLAYS HIS WIFE, ARE IN DIVORCE COURT, AND SHE SAYS SOMETHING TO THE AFFECT OF BEING AN HONEST COP, DOESN'T MAKE YOU A GOOD PERSON.  IT'S TRUE.  IT CAN BE A MASK.  APOLOGIES CAN BE FRIVOLOUS AND EMPTY MANY TIMES, BECAUSE, AS HUMANS WE FORGIVE OUR TORMENTORS.....WHY?....FOR THE CHANCE TO BE INCLUDED IN THEIR WORLD.

I AM NOT WITHOUT FAULT.  I HAVE ISSUES LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.  I DON'T CARRY A TORCH, AND PRIDE MYSELF ON BEING PERFECT.  I JUST NOTICE, AND TRY NOT TO REPEAT, AND THAT'S ALL WE CAN EVER REALLY DO IS PAY ATTENTION, AND TRY NOT TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES.  THE KEY THO, IS TO PAY ATTENTION.  BE HONEST WITH PEOPLE, AND LEAD THEM TO A PATH OF INDIVIDUAL DISCOVERY, USING WHAT YOU'VE LEARNED THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE AS A TOOL TO HELP OTHERS SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY.  IF YOU'RE RUNNING AROUND ATTEMPTING TO CREATE CLONES OF WHO YOU ARE, THEN, YOU ARE JUST EMPTY ON THE INSIDE.  WHICH IS, WHAT A LOT OF PEOPLE DO TO THEIR KIDS, TRY TO TURN THEM INTO MINI ME'S, INSTEAD OF REALIZING THAT THESE ARE PEOPLE IN THE MAKING THAT HAVE A WHOLE LIFE TO DEAL WITH, AND IMPARTING TO THEM THE SIMPLICITY OF IT ALL, MAKES THEIR LIVES EASIER.  THIS IS WHAT RUINS US, AS PEOPLE, AS THAT NOBODY EVER TELLS US THE TRUTH ANYMORE.  THEY DON'T TELL US THE TRUTH BEFOREHAND AND THEY DON'T TELL US THE TRUTH AFTER WE'VE CAREENED OFF THE HIGHWAY.  THEY SIMPLY LET US APOLOGIZE, MAKE EXCUSES FOR US, SO THAT WE CAN DO IT AGAIN.  WHICH IS WHY IT'S SO IMPORTANT TO SELF MONITOR OURSELVES, AND LEARN FROM OUR PAST MISTAKES, POTENTIAL MISTAKES, AND SURROUNDING MISTAKES, TO NAVIGATE A BETTER PATH, FOR OURSELVES AND OTHERS.   -  925